To go or not to go?

27 Nov

Mmmmm…do I really need to go to my GP to pay $60 for him to tell me that I have either torn the cartilage in my rib or fractured it again – of which I already know now I have done one or the other. Having experienced both before (of which there is little difference pain, discomfort and recovery time wise between the two).

There is nothing to be done about it other than wait for it to heal, rest I suppose and take painkillers.  I still have the codeine from last time I tore the cartilige in the same rib (it’s always the same one) last time…  Although given the regimen of other painkillers I am currently on (and wasn’t then) I’m not sure what mixing codeine in with the Oxycontin will do? 

I had a bad experience a few weekends ago when I took a mersyndol for a headache and nausea. In the past that had been standard for me – but I’d never taken a mersyndol while on the Oxycontin. Whoa baby!  That was pretty freaky!  I went out with sweetie that day, but was basically a walking zombie and the next day I had absolutely no recollection of the previous day.  At the time I didn’t know what was going on – other than I felt firking weird!  It wasn’t until the next day (when I could think a little better) that I realised what the “sitch” probably was.  I won’t be doing that again in a hurry!

Today I have supplemented the Oxycontin (my daily long-term pain-killer for back pain – not that it does that much these days for that anyway) with the faster acting Oxynorm.  It’s worked minimally, but the Oxynorm wears off fast and I have to just keep taking more. And the two of them together is making me pretty drowsy and weary now. 

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Should I be doing something important?

18 Nov

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Pneumonia this time

23 Oct

Dad is back in hospital again.

The reason for my cryptic FB message last week of:

If it’s not one thing, it’s always another.

This pattern seems to be the story of my life…

Either I am struggling with my own issues, or dealing with other family, friend or work issues.  But I suppose that’s just life isn’t it?  Although there are times that I feel like I do have more on my plate than lots of others. Maybe that’s just my own perception because there is of course so much that we don’t know about others.  And I’m not in any way saying that I have it the worst.  Just commenting that my plate is often full to brimming of things to deal with.

Mum txt’d me on Wednesday night just before I left work to say that she thought Dad was quite ill again and she wasn’t sure what to do…

So I went around to find him in a pretty miserable state.

He hadn’t been well for a few days, but everyone (including his GP) thought that he was brewing for another episode of shingles; and he had just finished another treatment for another urinary infection (these are very common now due to his catheter and are becoming more and more difficult to treat as he becomes more resistant to all antibiotic treatments for his particular type of urinary infection).

He’d been sleeping all afternoon, but had woken up and was shivering and thought he was freezing cold – despite having a very high temperature.  We immediately recognised that this was a rigor chill he was having.  (I am only familiar with this term after having one  many years ago that signalled a severe kidney infection in which I ended up in hospital for).

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Blood maybe not thicker…

23 Oct

I am wondering now  if blood really is thicker than water?

I’m beginning to think not.

It’s so bizarre really. All through my childhood and up to my twenties and early thirties, I honestly believed I had a very close and loving family.

Have I always been deluded and it’s never been the case as much as I thought? Or, has general life and the circumstances that come along with that  just changed things?

Regular readers and friends will know that my Dad’s health has been in serious decline for years now, but mostly since just before I began this blog.  He has had a number of strokes over the last few years as well as various other ongoing health issues.

Basically, he’s old and that’s that.  He is suffering from all of the ails of a degenerating body. These are now both physical and mental.

It’s been intriguing to note over this period of decline in the last few years, just how disinterested my siblings appear to be about their father.

In the past when things have happened, we have of course informed them.  This doesn’t usually ever transpire into any kind of visit, and is usually just a few days of txt messages and phone calls to get updates (of which Mum is generally the main information giver, and the phone calls can be quite draining on her after long days at the hospital).

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My Romantic Attachment Style

23 Oct

I am at work today on a Sunday, so am of course finding lot of other distracting things to do to fill in the slow afternoon…  And you know me – I always love a good self-reflection quiz!

Here are my results from a romantic attachment quiz.  Have done similar ones before and know how I am, but it’s always interesting to compare different sites and feedback.

http://psychcentral.com/romancequiz.htm

Measure your score

Relationship Avoidance:108.5

Relationship Anxiety:69.5

Attachment style:Intense and Preoccupied (hmmm… nothing new there!)

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